So have you ever felt like a failure ... yeah that seems to be something that I'm feeling everyday recently. I don't know I guess it's just the feeling everyone get's when they look at any person on the street and think "Wow, what a crappy job." then you realize that their job is better then yours, since they have one. Then, this is the worst part, you realize that that guy, just some random guy, has a better drive in life then you. A guy that delivers food everyday on a bike, not the cool motorcycle no no a bicycle. Driving up and down the street everyday is just something he does to make money to be able to bring home food for his family that live ... who the hell knows where or he is doing it to send back home to his family so they can live or he's just doing to pay for the many many dates he get's nightly or he loves the freedom of this country and wants to stay living here.
I have no idea what he's working for, but there he is when it rain, when it snows, when he's sick, when there is ten orders of pies and he can only hold four. I just want to be like that some days, just feel the grind of life and turn it into a passion that I can run with and be happy that I have this job that I earned day in and day out. Like I said I feel like crap when I see a guy that has a crappy job and I can't even work hard at the thing I'm passionate about, though after seeing that I always feel like I'm working to impress that guy or the ideal of that guy and his kids. Like one day he will be watching TV with his Grand kids and not know that I made that cartoon for him and his passionate drive through life, but I did.
The romance of life no matter how false and no matter how true there is always a reason to live another day even if it's to get that pizza across town under 30 minutes. Passion should be enough, but a muse is something that keeps me strong enough till the next inspiration to live comes. I fear the day that I run out of passion.
Stay strong and awesome.
-David












